the owner of the stars

lie

2010-03-08T06:28:00.000-08:00

you're in my thoughts again

i promised not

to think of you.

i just can’t.

every time my mind

feels free from you;

every time i gain the confidence

needed to forget you;

every time I think –

i am no longer affected;

every time I convince myself

that I’m not in love with you.

is the time I fucking

LIE to myself!

only in dreams

2010-03-06T06:41:00.000-08:00

i have to say this before you go,
i have tell you how much you mean to me...
as i hold your hands and look into those eyes of yours,
a smile brightens up your face...
we both wanted to be together,
sharing this love as one...

knowing nothing and that no one
could ever tear us apart...

as tears of happiness stream down our faces,
we both are glad to be with each other...
together as we stand here still,
our hearts filled with a love so deep...

hoping & praying that this will not end,
but alas we both knew we have to part...

i don't know what tomorrow has for us,
will it still be sunny and bright...
i know eternal bliss is too good to be true,
for now only in my dreams could i hold you...

my every waking hour is shrouded in fog,
knowing that i could not be with you anymore...
no warm fingers to caress me,
only the cold fingers of loneliness touch my body...
all i could do now is dream,
for i could never show you again what i feel inside...
i know now that its over,
but still my heart wont let you go...
i still can remember our moments together,
the feelings that spin around my head each day...
feelings that are only meant for you,
but now i could only show it to you and be with you
only in dreams...

i still love u..i love u.. but its too late now..tc my
star and my ever dearest langga...

lang i'm always here for you. no matter where our life will lead us, u will still and always be my langga...

stimulant

2010-03-06T06:39:00.000-08:00

you're the best stimulant i ever had.

no milk.

no sugar.

no creamer.

only a pure dose of YOU -

body and soul.

definitions

2010-03-06T06:38:00.001-08:00

how would you define US ?

happy. sweet. full of love.

how would you define ME ?

SOULMATE.

how would you define LOVE ?

it's like a river that flows forever.

long

2010-03-06T06:27:00.000-08:00

its been quiet awhile since i last bumped into the blogging world. lots of new things happened in my life for the past months, new acquaintances, pleasurable experiences, lots and lots of things which prompted me to re-open the complicated web of my complicated life...

addiction

2008-11-10T04:32:00.000-08:00

you've become my addiction...

a sweet vice
that i can not free myself from

my caffeine
which runs
in my entire system

my beer
which subs
as my water

my cigarette
which i breathe
freely

my poker
which i'm
hooked with

my ejaculation
that i just
can't resist

my morphine
which i'm
overdosed with

my COKE
which paralyzes
my brain cells

an addiction...

that even
rehabilitation

can not cure!

message

2008-11-10T03:49:00.000-08:00

message in a bottle - my own version.

lang,

this may not be the most romantic thing i have done but if in any way, this letter would reach you.i would like to believe that destiny has its own way of saying that we are meant for each other.

i can't imagine living my life without you. as i sail back to the shores of our place, it's you whom i think most. hope to see you soon.

no one loved me like the way you do...

i love you, too....

langga

-this letter was placed inside an empty bottle of a mineral water. and was thrown out from M/V Our Lady of Good Voyage on my way back to Iligan from Cebu last May 2006.

-lang, i doubt if this letter ever reached your hand. this was 2 years ago and everything's changed now. .maybe, we're not destined to be with each other. =(

painful

2008-11-10T03:32:00.000-08:00

12 PAINFUL THINGS THAT COULD HAPPEN TO YOU....

twelve - bringing back the feeling you've learned to forget

eleven - reminiscing the good times

ten - trying to hide what you truly feel

nine - loving someone who loves another person

eight - having commitment with someone that you know wouldn't last

seven - shielding your heart to love somebody

six - loving a person too much

five - the right love at the wrong time

four - taking risks to fall in love again

three - letting go

two - accepting that it was never meant to be

one - what ifs

a 4wrdd txt msg.

temptation...

2008-11-05T18:48:00.000-08:00

we were left
only the two of us
in a room
filled with temptation

you were so irresistible
i had to control
myself

to save us

from the depths
of the unkown...

---february 19, 2005

love...

2008-11-05T18:43:00.000-08:00

from tabulas...

if this is love
why would i suffer like this?

if this is love
why is it so complicated?

if this is love
why would i feel more pain
than happiness?

if this is love
why would i end up sitting on the edge
of my bed,
asking myself why did i ever
fall in love?

a txt msg

2008-10-26T14:28:00.000-07:00

"if telling the truth can hurt and break someone's heart... what more can a lie do??? think about it."

-igo kaayo. ouch!

tunnel

2008-10-26T14:12:00.000-07:00

don't worry
as long as the sun still shines
there is hope

don't give up
it's not that easy to let go
don't just give up immediately

hold on to that tiny spark of hope
coz at the end of the tunnel
u'll be surprised

the one u truly love
is there
waiting for u...

the promise

2008-10-16T00:09:00.000-07:00

remember our promise to

each other?
we’ll only be free till one

would agree?
why did u have to let go?
when you know for sure

i’ll fall for you?

it was my fault

too much time was wasted…

what is time wasted?

compared to us now?

we keep our feelings

within us… only to ourselves…

fearing anyone would notice

the love that we share.

guess life’s meant

to be this way…

guess we’re destined

to be this way…

the moon and the star

who would’ve spent

their lives forever…

sad to say…

we’re blinded by reality –

forever’s gone

till eternity…

10.05pm 10.01.05

stars

2008-10-15T06:21:00.000-07:00

stars are nicely watched when you are with your special someone,

- when you're with me...

lobo

2008-10-14T18:46:00.000-07:00

" hindi sa tala sa langit, kundi sa buwang sumisilip, ibigay ang hiling ng matang nakapikit"....

- lobo, 2008

drunkard

2007-12-03T04:29:00.000-08:00

"dili ko ganahan mo ingon nga dili nako mo inum kay mo inum pa gyud ko, fight duduy!"

-ako, samtang galigid-ligid sa kahubog... wahahahaha

-d o w n-

2007-11-11T10:08:00.001-08:00

i took the bus,
you were there.
i sat by your side,
you, stared at my eyes.

i smelled your perfume
you took off your shawl...
your shoulders were bare;
my lips were there.

your eyes were closed,
fingers running through my hair,
making me feel
you wanted more...

with a quick shiver,
you grinned at me.
making me realize...

my hands were left;

D

O

W

N ...

there!

marlboro

2007-11-03T22:24:00.000-07:00

siga sa kayu
dagkot dayon...
puwa o puti
way pili.

suyop gamay,
ginhawa'g dako.
bugwak sa aso'
da taktak sa abo.

tutok sa baga,
huna-huna'g lawum
ngisi'g gamay-

suyop na pud dayon.

paglili ni nanay
dali-dali'g labay...

hadlok man masakpan
nanigarilyo di ay!

just a thought

2007-10-13T06:49:00.000-07:00

withered.

wasted.

shrunken.

dead.

lang...

this is me,

without you.

at night

2007-10-12T12:09:00.000-07:00

as the sun bids
goodbye
another lonely soul
will cry.
as the goddess
of the night shines,
all memories'
are back on the line.

ever shiny light
of the night,
makes his heart
weak in his fight,
even when his stars
are too bright,
still darkness
is in his sight.

staring at her
is all he can do.
full of sadness
and loneliness, too.
now his eyes
he had closed...

tears fell down
from this
poor lonely ghost!

confessions of a fool

2007-10-12T11:39:00.000-07:00

that sweet smile -
in my mind, i vividly recall
the conversations came running
back to my senses,

why did i ever let you go?
was the biggest question,
that even i,
could not find the
answer.

how fool was i?
to refuse such offer
of pure love and happiness...
in the hope of finding
true love from someone else,
i turned you down.

my quest -
i haven't started yet,
when in the four corners
of my room,
its your face
i see...

every time i hear your name
every time i see you smile
all i do is ask myself- why-?

WHY DID I EVER LET YOU GO?

now that you found someone else...
i see the happiness
i wasn't able to give

now that there is someone else...
there's nothing i can do
but to look st you... and...
hide what i truly feel;

for i fear to realize,
how fool i was
to let you go.

i confess these to you,
just to let you know...

YOU ARE BEING LOVED
BY A FOOL,

who's right now,
without a doubt,
drowning in the sea,
of what they call...

REGRETS AND MISERY.

am i a bob ong disciple???

2007-10-12T11:14:00.000-07:00

please i need more of his books.
i accept donations =)

my universe

2007-10-10T04:22:00.000-07:00

she is my moon

i am her star

she is the reason

why I exist

why I live

the sun took her

away from me

together,

they built

their own galaxy.

with a new planet

born on their side…

the star

left in the cold,

spacious,

outer world,

with no one beside him –

he was all

alone.

bus ride

2007-09-24T10:08:00.001-07:00

you were by my side
i,
caressing your hands
trying to fill in
those empty spaces
it fits so well
so complete

so complicated...

i asked if you still love me

silence.

not a single word.
you closed your eyes

i understood.

i looked at the windows
a reflection on my eyes

i am still in love with you...

ang bulan ug bitoon...

2007-09-24T10:05:00.000-07:00

paglantaw ko sa bulan
wa'y laing nahinumduman
kundi ikaw - nga mi-ingon
"ako ang magdala ug
kahayag sa imong kinabuhi"

ako usab mo angkon
ing-pasalig kanimo'g
" ako ang mga bitoon
sa kalangitan, nga mag-giya
kanimo sa kanunay"

ang bulan ug bitoon
pirming magkahiusa
wa'y higayon nga mag-inusara
mo-ulan o mo-init
inig lantaw sa langit
ang bulan ug mga bitoon
di' gyud mo agi ug kangit-ngit

-mura'g kitang duha sa una-

ing-labay ang panahon
ang bulan nagpahiyum lang gihapon
ang mga bitoon -
ingtago...
tungod kay wa siya'y hanaw
sa sunod nga mahitabo

ang bulan ing-hinay ug kaluya
nagu-ol tungod ang bitoon
nawala

hantud...

ing-abot si adlaw
nga tungod sa kasilaw
ang mga bitoon
napaso ug nahanaw

apan sa imo ra gikan...
"wa'y panahon nga mag-bulag
ang bulan ug bitoon"

ako ang mga bitoon sa kalangitan...
gikalimtan...
nagmahay...
apan na ara sa imong kilid
sa kanunay...

panaginip...

2007-09-24T10:02:00.000-07:00

sa aking isipa'y
matagal na kitang linimot
subalit sadyang
mapagbiro ang tadhana

sa 'di inaasahang panahon
sa akin, ika'y nagpakita

ala-ala ng kahapo'y
nanumbalik...
mga mata nati'y
muling nagkatitig;
mga labi'y puno ng
pananabik;
napukaw muli,
mga damdamin nating
sawi

napakahirap tumanggi
sa tukso
na di natin
maikukubli
mga katawa'y naglalagablab
animo'y naglalarong apoy
sa ating buong
kalamnan

pikit mata
wala tayong nagawa
kundi sumabay
sa saliw ng musika

pagdilat ko'y
wala kana
iniwan mo akong nag-iisa

tumayo ako sa kama
akala ko'y totoo na

sayang... tsk.tsk.tsk.

IKAW ay PANAGINIP lang pala!

of coffee n love

2007-09-22T20:06:00.000-07:00

sili

2007-09-10T08:33:00.000-07:00

ingtubo sa atubangan

sa among balay

gipaningkamutan kong ibtun

apan dili makaya

ingpuwa, ing hinog

gihinay-hinay’g pu-pu

gi pangga sa uban

gi bangga sa kadaghanan

pula…

halang…

makapaso…

lami…

sama sa

atong GUGMANG gibati!

full moon

2007-08-30T09:02:00.001-07:00

you use to think of me

when the full moon shows

everything does come in full circle -

once a month

when the moon is full

can't help myself

from thinking of you ...

b-r-o-k-e-n

2007-08-30T08:54:00.001-07:00

a clear glass
so fragile
so delicate
everyone's
careful enough
not to break it

it fell
i wasn't able
to catch it

now broken;
its pieces
never to be
formed
again...

am sorry
for the pain
i've caused
for breaking
the glass
which binds us
to eternity.

why are the stars nice?

2007-08-24T10:16:00.000-07:00

“why are the stars nice, jopet?” tey asked me, as we did a stop over in Baclayon’s breathtaking seashore.

I was dumbfounded.

It took me 48 years to come up with this not-so-brilliant answer; “they’re nice tey, because they belong to me”.

mysterious…

unique…

tempting…

they’re like me…

tragedy

2007-08-24T10:09:00.001-07:00

there is nothing more painful than to see the person you loved most:

SHE -

the girl of your dreams -

all dressed in white... so perfect...

so beautiful...

walking down the aisle

smiling sweetly.

ready to tie the knot...

because of the sweet angel

inside her womb...

not yo you! - but with someone else...

who could blame her? when it's all your fault!

you let her go...

i thought it only happens in tragic movies

never did i expect it could happen in reality...

WORST!!!

it happened to me...

in pain

2007-08-23T09:01:00.000-07:00

why does it hurts so badly?

now that i'm sure
you're the only one
meant for me?

now that i realize
you're the best thing
that ever happened to me

now that i've learned
that you did love me
with all honesty

now i know why
i am in pain...

the love that
once was mine
is now gone
and never to return...

somewhere

2007-08-23T08:59:00.000-07:00

somewhere...
in the stillness of the night
someone...
is thinking of you

on his pillow
he whispers softly
words that were meant
for you

on his blanket
he feels as if it was you
embracing him through the
coldness of the night

on his bed
he thinks of thoughts
only you two can do

on his hands
lies the future...
at present, not even you
can handle

in a minute or two

he wiggles and mumbles...

now he's over you